actually just feel bored and nothing to do so i choose to write something here.

this is the poem that i have written in the class today.i just wana write a part cause i feel that this part really meaningful…..

わたしが　どんなに　優しくしても

あなたの心は　取れないが

私の心を　取ったあなたは　私のように

毎日　楽しく　朝日を　迎えられないよ

no matter how much i treat u well,i cant get ur heart,

but even u have my heart,u can’t welcome　everyday sunshine happily like what i do.

i hope that i have translated it well.my taiwanese friend so worried after she read my poem,she wonder who i love and why i feel so lonely…..haha….actually its not really the case.i just felt like wana write sumting special besides following the pattern of writing of the textbook.

well….i always like that…like to write something sad…..makes ppl think that im a sad person but actually im nt.my frens alwiz said im the kind of happy going ppl n seem like no worries at all.is tat so?nt really….haha….tats impossible to have no worries.but else….i always like to make my life live happier.just like wat i wrote as my title `人生短短、幸福長長！` tat is the kind of life that i hope to have!

keep happy!keep going!nothing is impossible if we keep trying!go go chloe suan !

ごめんね、傑。。。。

昨日、あなたに怒った。本当にごめんね！I just can’t control my emotion.Sometimes i think i should have a heart talk.I mean talk to my heart and think carefully what to react.yesterday i also duno why i got so angry and scolded u terribly!this morning,i suddenly feel scared…..im scared that maybe i will lose u as my friend from now on…..

have a heart talk before take action…..then we can have enough time to think before take action.sometimes things not going too bad,but just because of the sudden unstable emotion,we will get so angry and do something that wil make us regret some other day.after thinking for 1 night,i suddenly understand that actually what u have done to me was not that serious,but i was easily to get angry!if i could take some time to cool down and think properly,maybe today we wont have a strange feelings between us….

well…..i really wisht to control my emotion.bot just because of u…..but just because of i dont want to lose any friends…….u all always give me a lot of help during my stay at japa.i should not get so angry just because of small small thing….i should not….i reaqlly should not….

ごめんね！ごめんね！本当にごめんね！

hehe….actually this picture is nothing related with this blog.but i just suddenly have the feel to put a photo here.hehe….a big fish that i cant remember the name which i saw it on the day i went to aquarium with my language partner haruka-san.wana see her face?here she is!

ok….gonna start my topic today!today we had a so called ’special lecture ‘ by kokugakuin university’s president about ‘what is shinto’.haha…..after the class i can just made a conclusion - ‘Shinto is just a bluff’ !!!

actually shinto should nt consider as a religion but just a myth and just a way of japanese lifestyle.they have no doctrine nor principles in their religion.after 1 and half hour of the lecture, the president still cant fully explained what is shinto!he keep saying ‘maybe…..maybe….’,so i just gave him a name as ‘Mr. Maybe’….yes!so choon!japanese dont really admit themselves as shintoist but they follow shinto’s matsuri.shinto have God but the president cant even tell who is the God.Then why people worship shinto?the answer is ‘maybe….maybe….’!what?!as a scholar of shinto,ur answer keep going round n round about ‘maybe’?

so disappointed!feel like shinto is just something useless but cover with a pretty cover paper.where is the content?im sorry to say that there is not much content inside……ai…..

I’m hurt!I’m totally hurt …… because of ur a few words….i totally broke down!

So far,i have tried my very best to learn japanese.everyone sayd that i have a good sense of japanese language.even in sch i have proved it by getting a good result in exam.so far,i have quite a strong 自信 on my japanese language.but yesterday when i show my japanese composition to japanese mama,she corrected alomost all my sentences and finally gave me such a conclusion :"あなたの日本語はちょっと幼稚です。” ha?….this is the 1st bad comment that i hv ever heard about my japanese language!

i cant sleep well yesterday night.my mind keep repeating the ‘幼稚な日本語’……sumore today morning i was having a japanese language exam….suffering…this morning my mood quite down…..sumore japan mam woke up so early this morning(usually she wil sleep until quite late) n then keep discussing the grammar mistake with me…..oh….i have tried my very best to forget the sadness but y u keep reminding me?

何で私は日本語が好きなんの？私は自分でもわからないわ！でも、絶対に頑張っていきます！何があっても頑張って行きたいのです！